Why Ask “Why”?

“The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?” Proverbs 20″24 NLT

Why? Why, though an awesome question in many situations, is a frustrating question when it comes to the struggles we face in life. Why emotional pain? Why physical pain? Why can’t I get a better job? Why I can’t I find a job? Why is my spouse angry? Why don’t my children listen? Why, if you are a loving God, did you allow this circumstance into my life? I could write a novel of all the “why” questions that I and those around me have asked and in the end, what good does that do, really?

Let’s take a quick look at Job. When he sat on a trash heap, scraping at his skin, he didn’t understand why God had taken EVERYTHING away from him. Do you think that if God had answered his why question it would have helped his pain? I don’t. Asking why doesn’t change the situation or take away the pain, it just adds more information to process and that’s not necessarily a positive.  And because God is our Father, like any parent, He’s got more information than we do and He understands the direction we are headed and so His answer most of the time to our question of why is, “Because I said and I’m your Father and I know what’s best.”

My mom died suddenly and unexpectedly. I was talking to her on a Wednesday evening around 5:30p and 30 minutes later she was in an ambulance on the way to the ER. Then 5 days later she was gone. She had an aneurysm that her brain just couldn’t recover from and so she went on to be with God. My mother and I didn’t have a typical mother-daughter relationship. My mother was the center of my world, the glue that held everything together. I worked to support her and my daughter and she did everything else, and that’s no exaggeration. I didn’t know where we banked and I didn’t know how to pay the bills. I didn’t know what was happening in PTA. I didn’t know how to use the brand new washing machine. My mother did it all and losing her was a blow I almost didn’t survive. And how many times do you think I shook my fist at heaven, so angry at God I could barely keep my sanity in check, screaming “WHY!!??”? Too many times to count. And in the midst of my pain I got no response. God was directing my path in a way I was not interested in following. But the truth was that the reason for this amazing pain was to get me back on the path He had for me. See, I had wandered so far away that God was just a shadow in my life and not a central figure. I didn’t need Him, I had my mom! I knew enough about God to believe in what Jesus had done for my sins but I didn’t want to have a true relationship with God because I didn’t feel I needed Him. What on earth could He do for me that my mom wasn’t already doing?

It took me 3 1/2 long and painful years of drinking, of hurting, of being places I shouldn’t be with people I shouldn’t know to finally get an answer to why God had called my mom home to be with Him. God knew my mom was His daughter and that she was going to a better place with Him. He also knew that I would never figure out how much I needed Him with her here and that she could help me more than she ever had here on earth by being in Heaven with Him so He took her. And even though my initial reaction was to run even farther away, the running was actually towards Him because it got me talking to Him even though I was angry and self-destructive. And when my rebellion got me to the place of sitting in a hospital emergency room having an anxiety attack that I thought was a heart attack and then finding that my heart was actually physically hardening, I gave up. I gave up the anger. I gave up the running. I gave up friends and habits. I cried out, “SAVE ME!” and God said, “Here I am”.

Don’t ask why anymore. Have the faith to know that God loves you and that He’ll do whatever He needs to do to draw you close to Him because in the end, He directs your path not you. He has ultimate control not you. He may let you wander but He will never let you go. Don’t let Satan lie to you and tell you that you don’t need God or that you can live life just fine on your own because you can’t. It’s not your option. God directs your path. God has your plan. God loves you. God has redeemed you. God is good. If you don’t feel that it’s ok, pray that you will and find the verses in His Word that will speak to you His love. He’s just waiting for you to say you want Him as the center of your life.

If you need help finding verses that will help you in the midst of your struggle, email me and I’ll share my key verses that I meditate on over and over. If you need prayer, email me and let me walk with you and share you journey. My email is kaprayingforyou@gmail.com.

God’s got you, don’t doubt it. Turn towards Him and before you can even fully turn around He’ll meet with His love, grace, peace and mercy and you’ll never be the same again.

KA 🙂

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One comment

  1. Gloria Califf · August 23, 2012

    Excellent comments and thoughts about “needing” God or fulfilling our own needs through people and circumstances. Very encouraging.

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